I remember back then, when I was a teenager and I dreamed of becoming a musician, I enjoyed every moment playing my guitar and writing songs and poetry and getting involved with artistic activities.
Soon after I finished high school, my family and relatives did not think it was a realistic goal and they gently pushed me towards a tourism career. The lack of music career guidance and the lack of support from anyone led me to compromise and felt lost and unhappy.
I was a young and peaceful kid that didn’t want to upset anyone so I avoided conflicts.
I have noticed that every time I tried to react towards some sort of conflict, somehow I would get more in trouble. So I tried to be as much as diplomatic as I could and I never confronted anyone about anything.
I moved to Canada (my birthplace) right after my graduation and I tried to enroll to the music faculty for guitar at the University of Western Ontario, due to the lack of music theory knowledge and half finished classical guitar studies I didn’t have any solid foundations to get in.
Although now I realize that I should have gone to a local music school first to get the credentials needed, my relatives and family didn’t know what to do, or probably saw it as too much hassle. they decided that the tourism career seemed like the easier choice for me and them.
I felt miserable and I didn’t know why…the environment where I lived also was negative and honestly soon I stopped loving life, I felt lost…my parents where on the other side of the world and they thought that everything was fine, the lack of self purpose and the mental abuse led me to start working hard to make others happy but myself. As I tried to find answers, I still could not find myself and who I am….so I started reading esoteric philosophy and mysticism. All these things led me to paths that I would never wish it to my worst enemy. I was not made for things like that.
After an early tourism career full of stress and anxiety, my relationships with women was also not good. I mean really…how can you have a happy relationship with someone when you are not happy with your self.
Gradually I felt more confused and unhappy I didn’t know where I was going.
All of this led me to depression from the stress and daily struggle to go towards the wrong direction. I even attempted to commit suicide from the spiritual confusion and pressure.
My relatives saved me from the whole devastation and took me to doctors, my mom travelled to Canada to see me, I still felt lost, I didn’t know what to do, I even felt that my relationship with God was in turmoil, as if He wasn’t happy with me or that He didn’t appreciate me. because of that I didn’t have anything to do with churches or religion. I recovered after a year and I started working in the tourism career again as work therapy which my doctor recommended. It built me up psychologically in the first year but soon I felt that I wasn’t evolving in my career. On the other hand I started having a deep thirst for music again, every time I played guitar people would feel captivated. I still didn’t have the knowledge and skills to write a complete song though…as the years went by I decided to take classical guitar lessons. I started performing guitar for hotel guests, and one year I decided to take online music career consulting courses. I learned alot as I met also musicians who were far more experienced than I was.
One day my tourism career ended abruptly and I tried to make the shift from tourism to music. My dad called me to see how i was and I told him about my decision. Needless to say that he freaked out! I told him that if he was going to go against it then if I reached 35 years old and still not be happy I would leave the country and my family and they would never see me again, and I hung up on him! He called me back in a calm manner and told me that we should talk when we meet.
So I started pursuing a music career…!
Despite the challenges and the trips all over Europe to find a good location that I can make money to to finance my music studies, I started going for the classical guitar degree, finally doors started opening up, my guitar teacher was well known for her teaching and things started finally happening!
I moved to Canada once again cause things were becoming even more uncertain in my home country due to the deepening of the financial crisis.
I slowly started building my music career (website, making connections in the local music industry, making recordings, applying to the Provincial Music Teachers Association, my relatives still had doubts about my music career but they soon started seeing results.
I am now at the point of my life where my self purpose is being realized…I ‘ve never been more confident, strong, happy, loving towards others and my self. I feel like I am in touch with who I really am, I manifest my heartfelt desires and dreams with much more ease.
Self purpose….(whatever it may be) is the purpose of your soul, the reason why you are on this earth! Thats why God made you! So that you can fulfill your destiny in life.
Some are made to be doctors, others to be teachers, others to be bus drivers, or farmers, or whatever you feel in your heart to be, whatever you feel compelled to do in your life, whatever drives you, whatever you feel excited to do every morning you wake up.
It doesn’t matter if you don’t have enough skills, education, experience for it, you can be completely mediocre at it but if you deeply love it you will search for information and approach the right people that will guide you. And why is that? Because God is leading you to it! He will give you opportunities, information and connections that will build you up and make you of who you are destined to be!
When you chase your heartfelt dream God is proud of you! He looks at you from high above and He says, thats my boy! Thats what I made him for! Thats my girl! She is doing exactly of what I made her to be in life!
A lot of people you meet will disagree with you and thats because they still think we live in the industrial age. In the industrial age people who had machines (Ford e.g.) made lots of money! And people who worked for these people worked from 9am to 5pm had a steady and secure salary, and since in those times money had alot more intrinsic value than today, with one single job they could afford to buy a house, a car, raise 2-3 kids, educate them and still have money saved up in their bank account.
Those times though are now over. due to the increasing inflation in the economy, a young person 20-30 has to work 3-4 jobs to make the same amount of income, but for how long though can he/she can keep up working all these jobs? 1 year? 2 years max? Many times I find it difficult to explain this to the older generations that things have changed, many times they agree with me when I tell them but in reality they are stuck in their ways.
We live in crucial times that only your self purpose will help you to not only survive but also thrive!
Next question is: What if your passion doesn’t bring you money??
Remember that Money doesn’t bring you happiness! Happiness brings you money!
On the next post I will explain to you how to make more money with your self purpose and work on your finances.
Keeping you in prayer!